so over it.
so over the people that you can't trust.
so over work.
so over my internship.
so over being a pharmacist.
so over being nice.
so over trying to do the right thing.
so over it.
so over it.
i'm so sick to my gut. so so so sick to my gut.
i hate it that i have to be so careful.
sigh i wish i could talk to my bro. funny eh? i know he wouldn't be giving my the standard answers like 'just pray lor.'
cos i have been praying but .... it's not enough.
sigh
jennen said (10:55 PM):
sigh hi koko. i wished you were online. i dont know who i can talk to. it's about work.
jennen said (10:56 PM):
i'm so over it. i'm so over doing the right thing. i'm so over working my butt off. i'm so over being taken advantage of.
i'm so sick of the people________
jennen said (10:57 PM):
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jennen said (10:58 PM):
sick to my stomach of the things i hear bout my profession.
i'm supposed to be a health professional but..... business makes everyone sleazy...conniving... manipulative. because of money.
jennen said (10:59 PM):
it's already 6 months and i'm still not competent. i'm not ready for my exams because my work place has given me no time to prepare for my exams.
jennen said (11:00 PM):
i'm so pissed off. i'm over it. sigh....
how did you cope with the working world?? how did you do it kor??? even before you went into the ministry? how did you do it? sigh.....
so over it.
what am i doing here???????
i wanted to be a health professional.
but i end up feeling so.....low. like dirt.
sigh.
i have been so strong for my bf lately cos he was going through a tough time. but now...it seems like he's getting better. so i dont want to stress him out with my probs. i just really want to blow off some steam.
so i guess blogging here will be good.
sigh. still so over it. bleh.
God. Please help me be strong. To press on. To fight. To keep running. To get through this year. To do well in my internship. TO be ready! To be a competent pharmacist.
i need someone to believe in me. I need someone to help me believe in myself. i feel so stupid right now. sigh.
so over it.
