life doesn't get any easier Saturday, February 2, 2013 6:45 AM
nope.
been about 2 years since i last blogged.
i stopped cos it got a little bit too depressing and repetitive.
lots of ups and downs in the last 2 years.
new job since i finished my internship. work has been challenging and rewarding at times.
Sometimes it's a burden.
my relationship with my first love developed and it will be my forever.
getting engaged was the best thing that ever happened to me.
other than graduating and getting registered.
but my relationship is still not perfect.
fights are always around the corner.
i always find myself sadden by the same person who sometimes makes me laugh and gives me joy and happiness money can't buy.
i read marriage books in hopes to help me. i find that it does. i find hope. i find education. i discover things about us. about me. which i hope will help us in our marriage.
all the squibbles that are happening now. makes me wonder. what would our marriage be like then?
it worries me. it does.
am i the only one who feels like this? why does it seem that we're the only ones squibbling like immature brats?
sigh. or am i just living in a presumption that all relationships should be like the fairy tales of continuous happy endings and a perfect forever?
cinderella finds her true love, the prince and they lived happily ever after.
maybe not? they will quarrel over every little detail. cos they are actually not perfect. no one is.
there you go. that's why i don't blog anymore. cos it's depressing. when i should be happy.
well, i am not.
i think i should go to sleep.
good night.
exhausted and scared. Saturday, October 16, 2010 6:17 AM
my board exam is next sunday.
i am exhausted. tired. my brain is hurting.
i worked 6 days in 2 weeks in a row.
i am freaking out.
i'm so afraid that I cant remember all that I need to. sigh.
Here i am. sitting in bed. Just spacing out. I am truly exhausted.
sigh.
i'm not doing any work tonight or early tmr morning. i'm gonna take it easy till after church tmr. sigh.
how Lord? how can i carry on like this??
Will i be ready for the exam this Sunday?
deep down in my heart, I feel that I am ready but I am afraid. Cos i feel that I cant remember all that I need to. sigh. sigh.
my poor brain. you need a break.
sigh.
12 hours of sleep Saturday, August 7, 2010 7:44 AM
is fantastic.
it's the best feeling ever. roar.
sigh.
sat morning sleep in.
syiok.
it's the same feeling as having freshly cleaned laundry and a freshly vacuumed room.
syiok.
teehehehehe... gonna have a road trip tmr morning with cheryl.
awesome..... i love weekends.
you make me smile Wednesday, August 4, 2010 4:45 AM
i want to smile again... sigh
but all i am doing is sighing.
we toil and toil everyday.
but for what????? sigh.
bah!
i better get to work. No time to feel demotivated. I have heaps to finish. roar.
5 mins... Wednesday, July 14, 2010 6:25 AM
5 mins more till i turn in for the night.
no studying done tonight.
work has never been crazier.
nuts to it.
nuts to everything.
it's mid of the year.
no wonder i feel so slack. bleh.
nuts to everything.
reading storybooks are my passion now.
getting lost in the fantasy, the romance, the adventure.
wishing that it was my life.
roar. not like the life i have now. one that is frequently grasping the ends of the strands.
sigh. life is slipping through my fingers daily.
i don't know how to be motivated again.
i'm mid way through my race of 2010. how can i finish it well? i'm not sure.
shopping doesnt make me as happy anymore. i've gotten all that i can.
i rather lie in bed with a gooood book. or BOOKS. hahaha sigh i really love reading. it makes me extremely happy.
happy as punch.
yawn. 11.00pm. night night world. please be kind to me tomorrow.
frustration.......vampires.... Tuesday, July 13, 2010 6:20 AM
sigh.
work sucks.. i'm so sick of assignments.
being hooked to twilight now doesnt really help. heh heh heh
i bought all 4 books. i have the first 2 dvds. will wait for the 3rd one to come out. bwahahaha.
sigh i keep the movie playing over and over again while i do my stuff. hahaha background movie.
sigh.
i love books. reading them keeps your mind of the real world. it makes you smile. laugh. imagine. fantasize.
sigh. having watched the movie, reading the book is kinda more fun!
i'll try and keep their faces in my mind when i read the book. heh heh. So i get my own personal movie in my head when i read the book. it's pretty cool. sigh. i rather read fiction books then my AMH. bleh.
sigh.
i can't wait for the weekend. going down to the city. i need to get away from the crappy ppl at work. they are really getting on my nerves. so mean to me when all i've been is nice to them.
watever. forget it man.
roar. all right 4 more mins..... i'm going to sleep. yawn! gonna wake up early to study. sigh. at least be a little bit productive.
disappointments Monday, June 28, 2010 6:57 AM
i had a number disappointments, too many this year.
